Kim gets real about ‘lonely’ marriage to Kanye in emotional ‘KUWTK’ finale

After 15 years, 20 seasons, and 268 episodes, the Kardashian-Jenner family took their final curtain call during the emotional finale of Keeping Up With The Kardashians (stream Part 1 + Part 2 of the finale on E!).

They definitely went out with a bang, as Kimberly, Kourtney, Khloe, Kris, Kendall, Kylie and Scott Disick (Rob Kardashian and Caitlyn Jenner were noticeably absent) revealed some major developments in their lives, reminisced about the past, shared their regrets, and their hopes for the future.

One of the biggest revelations of the night came after Kim revealed she failed the baby bar for the second time, and momager Kris visited her at home for emotional support, Kim revealed she’s been seeing a therapist in the wake of her failing marriage to Kanye West and she'd figured some things out.

“I am going to the therapist. I'll talk to the therapist. Why do I have to burden everyone? I know it's not a burden but… I used to go to everyone with all my problems – it's draining. I'm an adult; I have a therapist. Let me work on myself and see where I'm at," she explained.

Kim then talked about the state of her happiness and shared her main goal in life right now is “total happiness.”

“I know that complete bliss is not a full reality, but if I can have it more of the majority of the time, that’s all I wanna do. Wherever that takes me, I just want my pure happiness. That's what I am working on, figuring out how to get there.”

She mentions her business successes and high profile in society, but admits that what she really needs is someone to share it with. Like, say, her husband, Kanye West.

“I don’t have a life to share that with. Like, I do, obviously have my kids and everything, but am I just going to sit here and think 'OK my kids fulfill me and I’m good,' and then I never thought I was lonely.”

“I always thought I am totally fine, I can just have my kids, my husband moves from state to state, and I'm just on this ride with him, and I was OK with that. And then after turning 40 this year I realized, like no, I don’t want a husband that lives in a completely different state.”

“To me, I thought, oh my God, that's when we're getting on the best. But then that is sad to me. And that’s not what I want. I want someone that, we have the same shows in common, I want someone that wants to work out with me.”

She then recounts how lonely she felt in lockdown without Kanye, and how she opted to work out with Khloe and Tristan, something she called “third-wheeling.”

“I was so envious of that,” she admits. “I was like wow, it's the little things that I don’t have. I have all the big things.”

“I have all the extravagant, everything you could possibly want, and no one will ever do it like that. And I’m grateful for those experiences, but I think I’m ready for the smaller experiences that I think will mean a lot.”

“You’re a very strong girl,” Kris gushes about her daughter. “And you seem to handle everything very calmly.”

“Calmness is my superpower,” Kim agrees.

The emotional conversation was filmed toward the end of 2020. Ultimately, Kim filed for divorce from Kanye in February of this year, after six years of marriage.

The entire family got mega-emosh during the finale with a game of charades where they acted out the most notorious moments from the show over the past 15 years (Who could forget, “My diamond earring is lost in the ocean!”).

But the culmination of the passionate and poignant trip down memory lane came when Khloe presented the family with a time capsule for everyone to contribute to. In 20 years, to remind them of their time on the show, they each put in an item or two that reflected this chapter.

Kim put in her first fragrance “Dashing,” Khloe put in the keys to their Dash boutique, and also footage of their home interviews.

Kourtney dropped in a Smooch Children’s Boutique t-shirt “as a reminder of where I started,” and Kris put in the framed certificate trademark of the term “Momager,” because of course she did.

Kylie dropped in three palettes of her Kylie Lip Kits, and Scott dropped in his dang regal cape (remember that thing?).

Probably the most sentimental item added to the capsule was provided by Kendall, who added a custom painting of their first house featured on early episodes of KUWTK.

When we tell you fans were not okay watching this go down, we mean someone really needs to check on them. 

There will be a 2-part Reunion Special, hosted by Andy Cohen, June 17 and June 20 (8e/5p on E!), but not even that is placating KUWTK-stans.

Also, has anyone checked on Jennifer Lawrence?!

Stream Part 1 + Part 2 of the Keeping Up With The Kardashians series finale on E! now and tune in for the 2-part Reunion Special, hosted by Andy Cohen, June 17 and June 20 at 8e/5p on E!.

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